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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 8:38:54 GMT 9
"I thought it was funny..." Bow smiled, watching Darren shuffle off. He returned to the soup momentarily, adding more carrots. The more vegatables, the faster Darren would get better. At least, that's how things worked in his head. He never got sick.
"Needy?" Bow returned to the living room, to the couch. He stood before it, looking down at Darren. There was a look in his eyes, like he was hiding somethig. "Are you needy?"
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Post by azikael on Mar 24, 2009 8:42:35 GMT 9
"Depends what you mean by needy I suppose." He asked quietly, taking his hand away from his eyes to stare carefully at the other. He didn't like the look on Bow's face, and a frown came over his own. He wasn't sure how to explain that he just wanted to be around Bow, and sex wasn't the main part of it.
"I just...I like talking to you, and being near you. Is that silly?" He asked quietly, looking worried once more. He couldn't shift in this position, but he sat up, hands tightening on his sweat pants as he waited.
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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 9:00:11 GMT 9
"Nah, it's not silly." Bow smiled, moving to sit next to Darren. He slung an arm over the back of the couch, relaxing. "You have trouble with new people, right?" He scooted a little closer, "It's understandable to want to be around someone you get a long with especially being so far away from your friend."
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Post by azikael on Mar 24, 2009 9:04:48 GMT 9
"Thats..part of it but..gah.." He drawled off, looking frustrated. "I ..like you in a different way then I do her." Well obviously, he never had sex with her, but he wasn't exactly aware that his feelings for the other were a budding crush, one that made him both want to curl up against Bow's side, and just run away screaming.
He found a middle ground, and rested his head on Bow's shoulder with a sick, sad puppy stare up at him. "It's not trouble either. A lot of people are just annoying."
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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 9:11:41 GMT 9
"Oh, but random men who invite themselves to sit with you in cafes aren't annoying?" Bow smirked, his hand falling into Darren's hair again. "You have weird tastes, you know that?" He ran his fingers through Darren's hair, hoping that it was soothing.
"Maybe... you're just attached to me because I took your virginity."
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Post by azikael on Mar 24, 2009 9:35:21 GMT 9
His frown darkened, and yet he still leaned into that hand, a blissful look on his face for a scant moment before it was taken in by worry. He understood the others worry, and he shook his head, almost violently.
"No." He said, trying to sound firm, and failed. "I was attracted to you before that, in the cafe to." He told him, admiting something that made his allready warm cheeks flare up with yet another blush. "I just didn't know how to say anything." And yet, that didn't sound right either! Telling him he had a crush on him, with or without sex sounded so..stupid.
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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 9:40:42 GMT 9
"Oh..." Bow looked very thoughtful, his eyebrows furrowing. What was he supposed to do? He wasn't used to relationships, just sex. Being told that Darren had a crush on him... it was worrysome. He wasn't the most loyal guy, sexually.
But, hadn't you told Darren that? If it was okay with him... No, 'being' with someone, and still sleeping around, no one was ever okay with that. "I'm not too... used to that sort of thing. Are you saying that you want to keep me for yourself?"
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Post by azikael on Mar 24, 2009 10:05:50 GMT 9
He rubbed his face for a moment, a sound between a growl and a sigh tearing from his throat. "I'm not in the buisness of owning someone." He told him bluntly, staring at the boy from between his fingers for a moment. He knew what Bow was getting at, he wasn't sure if he could handle that, or if he was all the relationship savvy himself.
"I'd be.. upset, if that sort of thing happened if you were with me, I wont lie." He shrugged, trying to smile, but it was a bit sad. "But, a crush is just a crush right? And id rather not ruin our friendship." He wanted to say more, brush it off for being silly, but he couldn't. He would like to think that he had the abbility to sate one man's hunger sexually, but being that he was probably boring, he doubted.
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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 10:12:42 GMT 9
"Darren... our friendship was over the second we jumped into bed together." Bow looked very sad now, looking away. "Friends... that... friends don't sleep together. Friends don't think that way." He sighed, trying to think of a more gentle way to put this.
"We can... pretend that it was the sake, but we both know it wasn't. Pretending won't make up for the fact that I want to have sex with you."
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Post by azikael on Mar 24, 2009 10:16:32 GMT 9
There was an almost painful feeling in his chest now, and he all but refused to look at Bow. This was why he rarely spoke to people, he realized. This was why he had been dreading something the entire time they had been having sex. Something he couldn't explain, but had left a worrying part in his mind that said 'this cant be all good'.
"There is no middle ground?" He asked quietly, doing his best to hold his coughs and sneezes in, but couldn't, and curled up in a ball of pain for a moment before he could talk again. "I mean, I like talking and being around you, but if thats not something you'd..enjoy doing I guess um.." He could pretend they never met for one.
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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 10:21:41 GMT 9
"No. I like talking to you, an' fixing you dinner. But... even if we agreed to just be friends, I can't just ignore the fact that I'm attracted to you sexually." Bow chewed his lip, the hand in Darren's hair remaining there. He really liked him, either as a lover or a friend.
"And... could you go back? Can you tell me, honestly, that you wouldn't mind if I brought other men here?"
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Post by azikael on Mar 24, 2009 10:25:04 GMT 9
"It's ...not my right to say anything, I thought." He said lamely, much to his shame leaning into that hand with closed eyes. He looked pained, and it wasn't the cold that was doing it to him, or the flue what ever he had. He didn't like this conversation at all.
"Its your choice what you want to do Bow. I want to still..do everything that we've done. If you want to bring more men here that I cant really do much but be upset." He hated being so truthful but telling him other wise, well that just didn't seem right. He opened his dark eyes to stare at the boy from over his hooked nose, biting his bottom lip.
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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 10:30:40 GMT 9
"Mmhf..." Shit, the way Darren was looking at him... Bow wanted to jump his bones. He was such a freak. This was a serious situation, and all he could think about was sex. Maybe he's a sex addict. He needs help.
"Right now..." Bow had to resist looking away, as much as he wanted to. The thought of hurting Darren really hurt. That had to mean something, right? "Right now, I only want to be with you. But... neither of us have done this so... lets just take it slow."
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Post by azikael on Mar 24, 2009 10:34:10 GMT 9
He gave a small smile, but there was so much happiness in it, till of course he had to quickly turn away, giving himself a neck ache as he sneezed, shivering and shaking. "What a way to ruin a moment." He muttered darkly to himself, staring owlishly up at Bow. He felt oddly happy though, knowing at least for now that he could have Bow all to himself.
He couldn't resist, it wasn't a kiss(he still feared getting him sick), but he wrapped his hands around the others neck and tugged him close, kissing his cheek and neck, every where but his lips. when he let him go, he smiled. "I'd rather you not catch what I have." he said by way of explanation. "Also, I hope the soup isnt burning.."
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Post by Doomy Muffins on Mar 24, 2009 10:42:53 GMT 9
Bow's eyes widened, both at the kisses and at the mention of the soup. "The soup!" He jumped up and hurried toward the kitchen, only to stop and turn around. He hurried back over, kissing Darren on the cheek. Then he was off again, into the kitchen.
"It's okay! ...And ready!" Bow turned off the stove, moving to get out a couple of bowls. "C'mon in~"
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