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Post by 一姫 on Mar 2, 2009 6:06:40 GMT 9
“I do!” He said happily, trying to cling to his good mood although he knew later, when it became time to sleep, he'd sink back down, he was just trying his hardest not to think, about anything. He was unaware of his teachers reaction as their hands brushed slightly when passing the chopsticks, too engrossed in staring down at his food with a look of almost awe on his features.
“Itadakimasu~!” He said with a grin in his teachers direction before he picked up his bowl in one large hand and started to eat using the other. “Mmm... Sensei's a great cook!” He put some more of the food into his mouth and licked some of the juices from his lips, though despite how eagerly he was eating Kisuke still had manners and he was actually very tidy. He shifted his legs under the table to re-cross them, his foot brushing Shinogu's thigh briefly though he hardly even noticed because he was concentrating on making his meal disappear at an alarming rate.
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Post by Masutaa-Senpai on Mar 2, 2009 6:59:48 GMT 9
Shinogu let out a soft noise at his thigh being touched, retracting his legs over to let the other boy have more room. The soft brush still sent his thigh tingling. He chomped on his chopsticks idly as he wondered if he should turn the tv on. He thought better against it. There was probably something stupid on tv, anyways. He wondered if House would show tomorrow. He realized it would be tonight. He guessed tv would be a good idea later. He'd watch House in his room.
"Thank you, Kisuke." Shinogu let out softly. He wondered how much Kisuke ate. He had never seen him this hungry, or better yet, more alive than he'd seen now. He noticed that he was finishing his bowl. "Would you like some more, Kisuke?" He asked, before pausing. "Ah--" He got on his knees to reach over and pluck a grain of rice from the youth's face, nibbling into his thumb as he sat back. "You had some on your face."
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Post by 一姫 on Mar 2, 2009 7:08:40 GMT 9
Kisuke didn't have any thoughts of TV or the like, obviously not as uncomfortable as his teacher was with the situation. On the contrary, this was the first time Kisuke felt like he could relax and let his guard down since before he hit puberty. He tilted his head with a smile as he finished his bowl, though he blinked and stared as Shinogu brushed a grain of rice from his face and then ate it. Kisuke's cheeks started to color slightly and he couldn't take his eyes off of his teacher, though after a few moments of staring he coughed and looked down, looking like he wanted to say something but knowing inside that bringing up the issue of that penis... thing... wasn't exactly good manners while they were eating.
“I'm ok sensei. Actually I'm pretty full, I haven't eaten that much in a long time~!” He grinned. “Thank you!” He shifted and then stood up, picking up his bowl and chopsticks as he walked over to the kitchen and looked into the sink for a moment. “Nh... Can I wash up?” He asked quietly, though he'd already turned on the tap and started to fill the bowl with water. He wanted to do something for this man, who had been so nice to him.
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Post by Masutaa-Senpai on Mar 2, 2009 8:24:14 GMT 9
"Sure you can, Kisuke," He said quietly. Watching him get up, he sat back again, before lifting himself onto his own feet. He stood beside him in the kitchen. "You don't have to do that," He whispered softly, moving next to him to put his bowl underneath the water. Their elbows touched, Shinogu giving him a side glance as his breath hitched. "It's fine, Kisuke. Really." He began.
"Just concentrate on your homework, ok?" He said, edging the teen from the kitchen, making him sit in the living room. He bent over Kisuke, their faces reaching up to look at each other, his light brown eyes peering into chocolate brown.
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Post by 一姫 on Mar 2, 2009 8:32:30 GMT 9
Kisuke was slowly washing his bowl, staring down into the sudsy water distractedly when his teacher came to stand beside him. He felt the brush of their elbows and he secretly enjoyed the contact, though he wasn't really sure why. He blinked, well aware of the hitch in Shinogu's voice although he couldn't understand why it had happened.
Kisuke let himself be ushered into the living room again, sitting down with his legs crossed and his hands holding his ankles as he peered up at his teacher. “...Ne... Sensei....” He started, his deep voice quiet and unsure sounding. “I really wanna know... what's it feel like to get hard in the normal way?” Again he said something so out of place with such a straight expression, he was completely serious and he really wanted to know. He also wanted his teacher to stay exactly where he was because Kisuke enjoyed the view, his teacher was pretty.
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Post by Masutaa-Senpai on Mar 2, 2009 8:49:01 GMT 9
"Nani?" Shinogu looked down on him as he stared back up at him. At that, Shinogu blushed scarlet, straightening quickly. "I--" He couldn't believe Kisuke had brought up the topic for the second time that evening. "K-Kisuke, that's not a very appropriate question..." He said sternly, sitting across from him again. He knew he should've done a clean sweep this morning. Who would have thought he'd see his sex toy lying around.
It seemed the teen really wanted to know about the matters of his own penis--and perhaps even HIS. The thought of even TELLING him seemed to make something twist his insides. "It's not appropriate for your sensei to be telling you, who are so young, such things! Kisuke--" He was looking at him with such curiosity, and Shinogu was even more determined to look into his lap even more.
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Post by 一姫 on Mar 2, 2009 8:56:07 GMT 9
His brow furrowed slightly as his teacher straightened up and moved away from him to sit opposite. He felt guilty for asking now, but he really did want to know. He wanted to know what it felt like to actually feel good instead of being forced by pills which made his body either ache or numb below the waist. The effect was probably like that since he was young, he was supposed to be getting erections on his own but it seemed he just couldn't.
He kept looking at Shinogu as he was reprimanded for his question. “It's just... it's always felt so bad... but just once I wanna know what it feels like... and I really wanna know what it's like to finish too. It's never happened.” He shifted and looked down to where his hands were grasping at his ankles. “And I just wanted to know... I asked sensei for help because... you're the only person that I trust.” His shoulders hunched slightly and his voice had grown quieter and quieter as he'd spoken. “Sorry...”
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Post by Masutaa-Senpai on Mar 2, 2009 9:09:01 GMT 9
Please, please, dont say anything more...
“And I just wanted to know... I asked sensei for help because... you're the only person that I trust.”
Shinogu chewed his lip. This was risky business. This was just too dangerous of a discussion to be having! Wasn't he even aware that he was starting to be sexually attracted to him? It was hard to admit, and as alarming as the fact was, Shinogu was in constant denial of that fact.
He's a big boy, he can handle it. He was his pupil for Christ's sake!
Well, he certainly doesn't look like it? So what! He is only sixteen! He argued to prove his validity in the matter against his own thoughts. He'd always come to you for help. His mother was abusing him. He'd do anything to get out of that, Shinogu argued back. But, you're lonely...? Shinogu ground his teeth, a vein working at the side of his neck. He hadn't fucked in such a long time, that he didn't know what a warm body next to him in bed felt like. It came with the job. And sadly, single adulthood. "It's fine, Kisuke. I just think... it's too private of a thing to divulge, is all..." He blushed. Curse him and that god-damned curiosity of his.
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Post by 一姫 on Mar 2, 2009 9:19:46 GMT 9
Kisuke's heart was pounding in his heart as the silence after his words continued. He swallowed thickly, and after Shinogu spoke again he felt like his chest was tight. “Ah... Sorry.” He apologised again, of course Shinogu wouldn't want to help him with something like that, not after Kisuke had let him know how disgusting he was, after telling him about the things his mother did with him. He thought that more than being 'too private' it was probably 'too disgusting'. So that was probably the reason that his chest was hurting right now, because he felt rejected and gross... right?
Kisuke didn't say anything else, instead shuffling toward his homework sheet and starting to write again, he was almost finished with it, so it wouldn't distract him for long. He wanted to say something else, to ask why it was considered private if it was helping someone, and only the two of them would know. Why didn't his body work like everyone elses? He didn't feel at all like a man. Kisuke clenched his teeth, his jaw working as he breathed slowly, forced, through his nose.
He was broken right? Useless and he'd never get a girlfriend... although he never wanted one since he'd been put off of women for life, and even then, he'd never get a boyfriend because he couldn't get it up. He felt frustration welling up inside of him again and his eyes watered enough that a salty tear dropped onto his homework sheet and smudged the pen.
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Post by Masutaa-Senpai on Mar 2, 2009 9:30:06 GMT 9
Shinogu saw the tears well up on his face, and he tucked his lower lip between his teeth. He let out a soft noise, and was completely determined to wipe that miserably sad look from the boy's face. "I--" He shot out, startling them both, before continuing, his eyes focusing on the corner of the katotsu. "I S-SAID that--because your sensei is--embarrassed---about--those kind of THINGS. It has nothing to do with you!" He almost shouted, his cheeks turning red.
"It--" His face fell, his shoulders scrunched. This was embarrassing beyond relief, but Kisuke was not going to feel better based upon simple explanations alone. "It--feels nice when I, ah--" He began quietly, his bangs covering his blushing face as he continued. "When... I touch there. I usually think of--kh--" This was harder than he thought, divulging the silent fantasies that he, a man of thirty-three years of age, had to a sixteen-year old boy. This was wrong on so many levels. "--Of things that arouse me." He was starting to sweat at the face, his face now a brilliant bright red.
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Post by 一姫 on Mar 2, 2009 9:39:12 GMT 9
Kisuke jolted suddenly as his teacher spoke. Shock crossing his features for a moment before it disappeared into a confused sort of expression, glancing up to watch Shinogu speaking. He didn't even try to hide the fact that he had been crying, or wipe the moisture from his cheeks because of it. Of course it was embarrassing, those kinds of things were usually... right? But in Kisuke's mind that didn't mean it was a bad thing, or that it should be avoided.
“Sensei... What kind of things arouse you?” He asked after Shinogu had said it feels nice thinking of those things. He wanted to know so he could try it, although he wasn't really sure it would work for him. “I tried looking at magazines, but I don't really find girls attractive.” He said it bluntly, although he didn't indicate that he found men attractive, and he'd never tried to look. But his teacher was attractive to him, maybe if he thought about him it would work... but he had no idea about how it worked with two men. At all.
Kisuke moved over, leaning on his hands and knees, a little closer to his teacher. “Please tell me Youji-san...” He said, changing his way of speaking, maybe Shinogu would feel less embarrassed if Kisuke didn't talk like he was his student? But he was still wearing his uniform, which was a constant reminder. If he took it off and called him Youji-san would that make him feel any better about it?
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Post by Masutaa-Senpai on Mar 2, 2009 9:47:45 GMT 9
"Sensei... what kind of things arouse you?" Shinogu looked up, and he noticed that Kisuke was watching him intently. The remainder of his tears seemed to stain his cheeks, and for a moment Shinogu wanted to wipe his face and lick his tears. "Kisuke, that's really not appro--" He began, cutting him off as he was talking about looking in magazines, and being unable to find women attractive.
"Please tell me, Youji-san..." His voice made him quiver, and he knew only two things could happen, he would either leave to cool his head, or stay and buckle under Kisuke's insistent prodding to know things he had never dared tell people so openly. He called him by his surname, leaving out the word "sensei". Shinogu frowned. "I-I c...an't." He stammered out. For fuck's sake, he was a grown-ass man! Since when did he cower, and quiet himself around a boy half his age?? He was closer now, and Shinogu made a move to move away from him, slightly more uncomfortable by the situation. With all this talk about erections, he was sure to have one soon enough.
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Post by 一姫 on Mar 2, 2009 9:56:20 GMT 9
Kisuke didn't want to stop asking questions now, to actually have answers made him feel so happy, though his teacher seemed to be having such a hard time telling him. “...It can't be as embarrassing as what I told Youji-san earlier...right? Since mines useless but yours isn't... don't you think it's more embarrassing to be a disgusting, useless man, than a good-looking one who is fully functional?” His speech pattern had changed to something more mature, though Kisuke himself hadn't really noticed. He felt a little more confident all of a sudden, though the change could have seemed like a symptom of split personality to someone looking at him.
“I don't think it's a bad thing... I need Youji-san's help so... please help me... Youji-san...” His expression was level, though there was a hint of need there it was mostly an odd mix of curiosity and a lidded look, which seemed suspiciously predatory though the youth had no idea about that side of himself at all.
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Post by Masutaa-Senpai on Mar 2, 2009 22:11:48 GMT 9
"I-I--Kisuke, this is bad..." He whispered out harshly, noticing how the other was looking at him with an almost predatory gaze--Shinogu hadn't seen a look that intense in such a long, long time. His hair stood on end, goose-bumps collected over his tan skin... his pants tightened considerably, and with a mortified choke, he pushed at Kisuke's large frame. This was so not good. "IT isn't useless--y-you just haven't--done right things to it--and--" He was blushing profusely, like some schoolgirl, only perhaps the situation was quite worse.
He had sounded so much mature on him, and Shinogu was wondering if Kisuke was simply faking his tears to put him (his sensei!!) into a sketchy situation. All this nonsense about penises and erections, and not being able to pleasure himself, and what have you--and yet he'd managed to get excited anyway. "I c-c-c-can't help you with that--!" He stammered loudly, his hands at Kisuke's chest as if to create some sort of physical barrier between them.
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Post by 一姫 on Mar 3, 2009 2:08:05 GMT 9
Kisuke pursed his lips together and moved closer to his teacher, only to have hands pressed against his chest as if he was too close. He probably was. “...Youji-san... I've done everything I can think of.” He sounded a little defeated as he said that, he really had no idea what more he could do to try and get it to work. He didn't even know why it didn't.
Kisuke grabbed one of Shinogu's hands and shoved it down to the front of his crotch. “Even if sensei does that it wont work.” He said and pushed his teachers hand more firmly against the bulge of his cock, which wasn't even slightly erect. His face was flushed at his own actions, but he wanted to get the point across to his teacher that it really didn't work. “Even if you rub it it wont go up..... Sensei...” His speech reverted back to what it had been before for a moment. “I need help... I don't know what to do... but I don't want to remain useless forever... it's weird... I'm really weird but I want to be normal.” His expression was pleading now, even though he still had the firm grip on the other man's hand and was holding it against his un-reacting member through the layers of his school slacks and boxers.
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